Saturday, February 06, 2010

Five Seven Five

With the energy and optimism of youth, a young man here in town organized a poetry night at our local library. It sounded like something different and fun to do on a cold February evening. I wouldn't call myself a big fan of poetry, but at times I find resonance in the work of some poets like Robert Frost, Donald Hall or Gary Snyder. There were six of us, and I thought that was a pretty good turnout for a place where everybody is always too busy. It was fun and stimulating. I met a few new people and got re-acquainted with some old friends.

I didn't want to go empty-handed, and since the closest thing to poetry I had to offer was a handful of haikus that I've put in this blog in the past, I went through my old posts and jotted them down. About all I know about haiku is that, in one form, there are three lines, the first and last lines have five syllables and the middle one has seven. That length is appropriate for my attention span, and I like to have some simple rule to follow.

These little poems brought back memories, both fond and bittersweet, so I decided to collect all of them in one place. Each one is accompanied by a little background about the moment they came to me. The dates refer to the blog posts where they first appeared.



May on the Deck
May 2007

I like to think about the cycle of seasons and how it affects the natural world around us. Every summer on May first, the chimney swifts return to Sharon to zoom and twitter overhead all summer long. On September first, they are gone. Also in May, the catbirds return to nest in the overgrown and unruly clump of forsythia in my backyard. I love to sit on the deck on a warm May afternoon watching formations of swifts flying their patrols over the house and listening to the catbirds mewing from the green depths of the shrubbery. It makes me feel like the world will be OK for at least one more season.


chimney swift catbird

sky above forsythia

good to have them home



Running to Another Place
June 2006

One of my regular runs takes me from home, through the town center, and over the tracks to the road up Moose Hill. On a good day, my body will feel efficient and my stride will be smooth. As the pumping blood washes over my brain I can get lost in dreams and, at times, I feel like there are secrets in the forest and that maybe a little bird - like the wood peewee - might be trying to share them with me.

Warm summer rain run.

Endorphins bathe open mind.

Pewee calls from woods.



Cold Blood
June 2007


Often times on these Moose Hill runs, roadkill is a reminder of life and death and the way we can crush the natural world beneath our feet and machines. One warm, damp late spring morning, following an overnight thunderstorm after a long dry spell I came across a big bullfrog that had me wishing we could all slow down and be more careful when we drive.


Rain lets bullfrog move

Warm road feels good to cold blood

Driver does not care.



How Quickly We Fall
June 2007


In 2007, I was trying my best to recover from prostate cancer surgery. (Everything is fine now, thanks.) My recovery was not going well, and in fact, I was feeling sicker and weaker all the time. What I didn't know at the time was that I was coming down with a nasty case of Lyme disease, totally unrelated to my surgery. I was confused, frustrated and depressed.

Having had almost no exercise for about seven weeks, I decided to hike to the summit of Moose Hill. While I was reaching for life, once again it didn’t take long to be reminded of death by roadkill as I turned onto Moose Hill Parkway.

Shagbark hickory.

Squirrel tempted by crushed nuts.

One last fatal bite.


Walker sees squirrel.

Maggots dine on rotting flesh.

No life is wasted.


This brought to mind the writings of Gary Snyder where he reminds us that all death nourishes new life.

As I climbed, I felt sicker and weaker. It was hot and dry and trees were dropping leaves prematurely. I was thinking of seasons - and lives - ending before their time.


When does youth turn old?

Like summer turning to fall,

We want to hold on.


How will we turn old? Will it strike overnight like a sudden hard freeze? Or will youth slip away gradually like summer slipping quietly, barely noticed, into fall?




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Sunday, October 21, 2007

Cheap Tequila

October 13, 2007

Even though I was planning my first breakfast on Moose Hill in quite some time, I slept late. Just as well, it was only about 42 degrees when I left home at 9:15 on the touring bike, and for the first time this season, I was thinking I should have worn the full-fingered gloves.

I took a round-about way to Moose Hill, first heading down South Main Street to our local farm. There are darn few farms of any kind in the Boston area these days, and like many of the few that remain, this one is something of a boutique farm, selling some local produce and lots of expensive imported goodies to well-heeled suburbanites.

I went to the farm to look at the corn. One crop this farm does grow and sell in abundance is corn. Unlike the maize of the American Midwest, this corn is for human consumption. We buy a few ears every year and simply roast them on the gas grill. Delicious!

I’ve been thinking about corn lately and the folly of growing corn to replace gasoline. I read that it takes something like 1.0 gallons of fuel to produce 1.3 gallons of ethanol. When all the energy to till the fields, produce the fertilizer, distill the alcohol and transport the stuff is factored in, I’d be surprised if it was that efficient. It just strikes me as wrong that good crop land, fossil water and fossil soil would be dedicated to replacing the fossil fuel that powers gas-guzzlers. I’d rather think the American breadbasket was producing nutritious food for people.

But hey, if much of our corn crop went into powering Hummers, maybe we wouldn’t really be losing that much. So much of the corn grown on corporate farms of places like Iowa is not used to produce high-quality food but goes into high-fructose corn syrup or is fed to cattle in vast feed lots. Would America suffer with less cheap soda pop and fewer fast-food hamburgers?

Last weekend, we traveled from Boston to Rochester, New York. As we drove by miles of idle farmland and thousands of acres of abused low-quality forests, particularly on the plains to the south of the big lakes, I wondered if under-utilized land like that could be used to grow energy and the most valuable farmland of the Midwest could be saved for high-quality food.

Most of the local corn at Ward’s Farm had been harvested. A small block still stood, brown and dry, drooping tassels swaying in the breeze. Perhaps this will be harvested for Halloween decorations rather than the table. Small, unsubsidized family farms must find many creative ways to pay the bills.

My plan was to have breakfast at the lower Billings Farm meadow, so I left the open farmland and pedaled through the forest up the back side of Moose Hill. Just a year ago I had a near-religious experience in that meadow (See “Promises to Keep”, Oct. 14, 2006.) so I rode slowly down the gravel road with some anticipation. But unlike last year when the whole field was teeming with busy birds, this year things were quiet. Even the trees seemed subdued. Maybe it was the dry late summer we had, but the autumn leaves seemed more brown than colorful. It was almost ominous.

I dismounted and pushed the bike as I looked for a place to sit. Just over a month ago, I had been diagnosed with Lyme disease after feeling really crappy for a few weeks with a variety of weird symptoms and going through all manner of unhelpful tests. Because the Lyme came so closely on the heels of surgery I had in July, the doctors kept trying to relate my symptoms to the surgery and were not considering other possibilities. Thanks to an ever-vigilant wife reminding me to tell the doctor about all the Moose Hill deer ticks crawling on me in June, a proper diagnosis was made and three weeks of antibiotics solved my problem.

The bacteria are now dead (I hope!). I could feel them dying the day after I took my first pill because I was sicker than ever. Now, I’m feeling great, but there is a lingering fear. Will I ever again be able to go to Moose Hill during tick season (Is there a “tick season”?) without worrying about ticks? They are so tiny and hard to see. I never showed the classic bulls-eye rash. Admittedly, my exposure in June was extreme with well over a dozen ticks on my body, but all it takes is one bite. Once bitten, twice shy. I worry that my tick paranoia will taint every trip I make to the woods I enjoy so much.

I went to my favorite spot in the sun by the old stone wall. I like to sit there inconspicuously on the fringe of the field and watch nature’s dramas while sipping coffee. This time the ferns all seemed tall and looked as if every frond tip could hold a tick eagerly waiting for a chance to grasp a passing animal. Was that a deer trail passing through that gap in the rocks? I could see I had a problem.

I finally decided to sit out in the open in a mossy spot where the vegetation was very low. The only birds I saw were passing overhead. Flocks of grackles and blackbirds were moving south. Squawking blue jays flew over the oaks, perhaps looking for the sweetest acorns. I lone pair of geese went by held together by their invisible bond. I hoped they were the migrating variety that prefers marshes to golf courses. The only animal sounds I heard were the chipmunks still clucking from the walls. The black gum that was so central to the excitement last year when its ripe fruits drew scores of riotous robins was barren.

Sitting in a favorite field on a lovely fall morning, I should have been in a state of restfulness and calm instead of worrying about insidious threats. My troubled mind wandered to other times when one bad experience permanently altered my outlook. I remembered the first time, maybe 15 years ago, I hurt my back working. Over-enthusiastic post-hole digging led to four days on the living room floor. I never took my back for granted again. Going further back, I recalled the time in freshman year of college (The legal drinking age in New York was 18 in those days.) that we were low on funds and bought cheap tequila rather than the preferred Jose Cuervo. An evening of shots with salt licked from the wrist followed by sucking of lemons led to a night on the bathroom floor. I never drank hard liquor with the same innocent abandon again.

Scanning the meadow for anything that would rescue my attention from unpleasant thoughts, I was startled to spot a huge hornet’s nest. I approached the nest to see it was a bald-faced hornet’s nest over two feet high and over a foot in diameter hanging just above my head in a red maple in the middle of the field, dangling like a deadly fruit ready to bring much pain and misery to anyone foolish enough to pluck it greedily from its slender twig. The nest was constructed with over-lapping gray papery scales that looked a little like oyster shells arranged to shed water downward. There were two openings near the bottom, one about the size of a wren hole, the other smaller. I watched as a steady procession of hornets (wasps, really) came and went. They had black bodies with white bands on their abdomens and white patches on their faces – hence the name, I guess.

I think it was one of these wasps that blew in the window of the minivan some years ago. It stung me just over the heart and the pain was so intense I thought I might lose control of the vehicle and plunge my load of adolescents into a pond. I can only imagine the excruciating agony experienced by someone blundering into a whole hive. I found it a bit sad to think that these wasps replaced the four honey bee hives that used to be in this meadow. I imagine they were killed by the mysterious bee plague sweeping the country.

It was time to head home, so I returned to my bicycle. The joy of riding softened the disappointment that I was not able to find the peaceful state of mind that keeps me going back to Moose Hill. I fear that our search for cheap solutions to our energy needs will only give us a bad hangover, but for a few moments at least, I was human-powered and free of those concerns.

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